One thing people always say to me is “you have so much potential”. But what does potential matter if you can never seem to use it? There are so many things I want to do and I feel like I will never be able to accomplish them because I am too tired from just surviving. Isnt there supposed to be more to this life than being tired all the time! Sometimes I want to rail at the heavens for cursing me with this sickness.

John Nash was able to accomplish so much while suffering from a much worse illness, so why cant I. Is everyone lying to me. Maybe Im just not as gifted as everyone tells me I am. After all, I canèt even get this stupid function key to turn off!